tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4439200263955642089.post6594065227489542956..comments2023-11-02T09:05:59.716+01:00Comments on Diary: I want to go home.Candehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01678003991987294180noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4439200263955642089.post-11080375123499023802012-11-09T01:36:55.832+01:002012-11-09T01:36:55.832+01:00I am of two minds on this...
1 - Making decisions...I am of two minds on this...<br /><br />1 - Making decisions while sick is an awful idea. Our heads are workings, you can't see straight literally or metaphysically, everything seems off, everything is difficult, other people annoy us when they are just trying to help, and it feels like the sneezing, coughing, stuffy head i can't rest feelings will never go away.<br /><br />2 - It may be the perfect time. The little stuff drops away and you ask yourself where you feel loved. Am I comforted by being home, is he/she helping me feel better? Do I want them to hold me as I suffer or just leave me alone? How do I answer this question; "When I feel better I am going to....?" Get out? Pack Up? Leave? or is it answered with thoughts of staying put and finding comfort at home?<br /><br />Moving, I mean really moving back home, would force you to start over, so I don't recommend moving back to your hometown. Too much baggage, too many questions about kids, husbands, the future, the past. Move close to home so you can drive there on the weekends, but not so close that they can define who you are by who you used to be.<br /><br />You didn't mention how the BF was handling you being sick, but I think it's important. We all get sick, and we need to know they will be there to help.<br /><br />Get well soon beautiful!!!Advizor54https://www.blogger.com/profile/02818587592229617693noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4439200263955642089.post-62388309112738787102012-11-09T00:40:25.353+01:002012-11-09T00:40:25.353+01:00sometimes I have this emotional whirlwind going on...sometimes I have this emotional whirlwind going on inside me and I wonder what Rob is going through. Maybe it's a need to emotionally connect on some level. I get massive urges, wanting to know what goes on behind the scenes with him. I want to ask him to tell me his feelings around me, I want in on his heart. <br /><br />He has the blog to read me, but I have what seems like a wall. I have this yearning to share, and not just the one way sharing where I talk and he listens. Sometimes I just yearn the mutual participation. <br /><br />There are pros and cons to that though.Candehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01678003991987294180noreply@blogger.com