What a mess

I did something really terribly stupid yesterday, and I'm trying to fix it... I'm a mess.... a total freaky mess.

I had a whole long post today about Rob but I have to update on the status of my profile and blog.

I was tired last night. I was on the couch, distracted, watching Skins and looking at facebook, keeping an eye on the blogs via igoogle/reader. A Facebook friend of mine (an old acquaintance) started a food blog with recipes and he published on Facebook that he had posted a new recipe. So off I go to read it, and I comment on it innocently. Little did I realize off the bat that my ID was set for my blogger and not my normal gmail account.

Off I went to bed and I wake up, bolt straight in bed (bf was sleeping soundly luckily) and I jumped out of bed, turned the computer back on and went into a frenzy seeing that my comment, with my FACE was on his blog. My profile taking him straight to my blog, with the first page visible my HNT from thursday!!!

HOLYFUCKINGSHITGODDAMNEDMOTHERFUCKER.

ARg.. so I went to delete it, hoping he hadn't seen it. Damn damn damn.

Well I went to delete it, I was panicking, I was shaking, I couldn't see much, I was exhausted with to much adrenaline pumping through me. The little window came up with the "delete" or "cancel" button... but little did I notice there was a tiny check mark asking if I wanted to delete it FOREVER. I just clicked "cancel".

There it is folks. The message was canceled, but my PROFILE AND PICTURE stayed. I can't get rid of it. If I had only just clicked that STUPID box it wouldn't be there anymore.

So I immediately thought of erasing my blog. I thought of everything. I couldn't concentrate on anything.

Luckily a skype friend was awake over in the states and helped me figure out what to do. I blocked my profile, took my blog off the profile, changed my profile to France, eliminated anything written about me, Changed the picture (a few times), changed the name of my blog to DIARY (even if the blogger address is the same). And I have now reactivated my public profile.
Alas my face still remains on his site. Only that if he clicks on the profile it now says "Female, France" with a different picture and my stupid random question about dinner with Hannibal Lector. Nothing more. No more mention of a blog.

Now what to do. I can't really leave it like this forever right?

For the time being I'll have to leave it like this. I am apologizing also to anyone who commented on my hnt, I wish I could have kept those comments they were all very sweet. I really really appreciate them.

I also want to apologize for having fooled around with comments on other peoples blogs, I was trying to figure out how to eliminate the comment better, after eliminating it once, that's it... nothing else to do. Specifically... that I can remember Sage's HNT post. Sorry hun. I'll try putting it back up. Fact is I tried it on my own blog comments, but since I am moderator it still gives me the opportunity to erase it permanently. So I was forced to try it out on someone else's blog.

I hope my friend doesn't have google reader, with a subscription to his comments. It would mean that even if he didn't see the profile with my blog, he'll probably guess it was me. I actually WROTE his name at the end of the comment. Since there are only 2 people commenting on his blog at the moment, I'd say it's pretty obvious.

Should I write him and ask him to eliminate the deleted comment forever (which he can do since he is moderator). Making some excuse that I have a fake profile for other types of blogs???? Any ideas people??

I'm shaking again, just writing about the bloody experience... don't want to repeat that again!


Yours Truely Cande.