I didn't cum... I actually faked it for the first time ever I think... I'm not actually sure why, probably to give him the go ahead to cum. I could tell he was having a hard time holding off. I hate faking an orgasm, I generally think that I'm terrible at it or that he'll figure it out or something but he didn't seem to notice.
I'm wondering though whether it is possible to tell if a woman fakes it or not. I was thinking about it as it was happening, I paid attention to the muscles in my body and how they were different to a real orgasm. I think the legs would be the easiest giveaway. I think the muscles in our legs contract and tighten involuntarily. It's the whole "toe curling" thing... our toes don't necessarily curl, but our legs do go quite stiff, our feet probably point or pull up... in one direction or another.
One thing though that is incredible with bf is that he somehow just knows what I want and how... he's telepathic during sex. Today he put his hand around my throat and squeezed ever so slightly. He never does that. He may have done it once before, and if he did I was surprised the last time too. It's something that I realized I liked after seeing Rob... How on earth the bf just knows these things is beyond me.
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So bf and I watched the film 'Closer' the other night. It was frustrating because I was supposed to meet Rob online. Bf had gone out for a drink with a friend came home and joined me on the couch. I was hoping he'd head straight to bed, but he didn't. Then I hoped he'd fall asleep on the couch, but that didn't happen either. He was riveted by the film.
It's a film with Julia Roberts, Clive Owen, Jude Law and Natalie Portman. It's this crazy love square between the four of them, that just gets worse and worse. It ends on a rather depressing note. Fact is that it was slightly uncomfortable to watch together. I kept wondering why he was so glued to it. He falls asleep during EVERY film we watch together and he didn't during this one.
As a friend said, maybe it was just because he liked watching Natalie Portman as a stripper (yes she plays a stripper).
But it does make me wonder whether he has been having an affair. For the past 4 months or so, bf has been shaving, or at least trimming down there. This is totally new for him. We've been together for almost 15 years and he starts trimming when we're not having sex? hmm makes me wonder. Better late than never though... lol I prefer it trimmed, if I have to give head especially.
Anyhow, I'm not worried or jealous (at least not yet). I may even feel slightly relieved if it were the case. It would take the pressure off me later when I manage to find a place. I guess I'll understand better when things get moving in that direction.
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I wanted to thank everyone for such kind words about the HNT pics, you guys are the best. I also wanted to welcome a couple new commenters. Thanks for stopping by! I had a lot of traffic yesterday, so it was also nice to see that there were a lot of lurkers.
If you couldn't find the third pic it was in the last ! mark after the HNTversary in the text above the picture.
For years I actually hoped that my wife was having an affair. I wanted to think that she wanted sex, wanted passion, even if it wasn't from me. At least then I had the chance of winning her back. That seemed better than the idea that she just didn't want sex at all.
ReplyDeleteI read a list of "clues", published by some women's magazine, that are supposed to tell you if your man is cheating. Personal grooming is one of them but the list was so vague that everyman becomes suspect.
How would you feel if he "moved on" faster than you on the social scene?
And, Natalie Portman as a stripper? Yeah, I'd stay up for that.
I bet if he's trimming that he's at least considering an affair. Why else would he bother? Men don't groom for themselves.
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I agree with Advizor that everyone seems suspect if you read the signs. I don't believe that faking is readily noticeable by men, especially if a woman has strong kiegel muscles to tighten the same as a man. But I don't know if I would fake it, I might give the verbal go ahead to cum and then he can finish me off with a toy or fingers once we're done.
ReplyDeleteI get the "go ahead and finish" sign all the time. Works for me. But toys and other things get in to finish the job.
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And, as a note, i used to trim because I though it looked good. She hated it, said it made me too prickly. :-)
15 years! wow.
ReplyDeleteand I thought i was bad having a 9 yr r/s n not popping the question. suffice to say that r/s is long over. LOL.
great HNT pics btw. f'ing awesome!