Monday, April 14, 2014

alone! (and Co-W update)

First night alone! I'm doing well... I even got some lesson prep done. I hope I can get a decent internet connection soon. I hate not being able to watch tv online.

Did I mention what's up with Co-W?
At work last week a work colleague who retired stopped by to say hello. While we were briefly alone together she asked me about Co-W, she offhandedly said "so Co-W and his gf are breaking up?" and I looked at her surprised and said, "oh really? I don't think so but to be honest I really don't know." to which she answered that she must have been mistaken.

That same week Co-W and I had lunch together. It was after work on Friday I think we finished late morning and decided to grab a sandwich together. We talked about this and that, and then I asked him how things were at home, with the baby, to be honest I'd already forgotten the conversation with my former colleague. He poured everything out as easily as water, he and his gf are in therapy with a psychoanalyst together. They were on the verge of disaster apparently. His gf is being overcautious with the baby and can't live in the moment. She's constantly worried about the future or the past. He, on the other hand is a well balanced guy usually, very sensitive and sensible, but he was catching her bug and going nutty trying to deal with it. I think they were close to breaking up.

He says that things are better now. I believe that she's improved, but he's the one keeping her on track. These things are impossible to fix. She's just got that innate problem it will be a constant battle. She's bipolar. I think he is too a little, but less, and with the two of them it makes for an explosive combination.

I'm guessing that this is why he was in touch with me, flirting heavily. He needed that distraction, even just for a moment. Can't blame him.

Anyhow I don't know what to hope for him whether he stay with her, or he get out.... either way it's complex and frightening.

Sunday, April 13, 2014


Yesterday was supposed to be my first night in the apartment. Bf dropped me off before work, kissed me and said he'd just go straight home after work and then said "I'll see you in the morning". 

It had been an emotionally stressful day and I was on the verge of tears all morning and that just pushed me over the edge. He must have sensed it. I didn't cry until he was gone mind you. I cried for a bit but he called me shortly after and asked me if I wanted him to pick me up so we could go sleep at his place. 

After he finished work he called me again to see what I'd decided and I kinda left it up to him because I didn't want to impose. He picked me up and we slept at his place. It felt right. And tonight we're sleeping here. It just feels like the right thing to do for now. I'm sure we'll start sleeping separately... Soon enough. I don't have a tv so the bf can't catch the news or his favorite tv shows here. 

I've met my neighbours, they're all nice. All kinda cool. I like the girl who lives above me. She just moved in too and she seems really friendly. We talked quite a bit in the stairwell today. 

I've managed to organize most of my things. The bedroom is almost set. The living room was a disaster until I moved all the boxes into a corner today. I don't have a massive bookcase anymore so I'm hunting for one. In the meantime I've got boxes and boxes of books. The sofa bed gets here on Friday. I'm excited about that since I got it custom made. 

I'm proud of how it's coming along. I've done a lot of refurbing of old furniture and market finds. It's exhausting but I like the final result.
The basement with my studio space is starting to come along but I still have a ton of stuff to do in there. It won't be ready to work in until after Easter, I'm sure. I still need to get a work table and finish painting some shelving. 

Back to unpacking... Tomorrow is a work day..... 

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Big moving day

Yup. This is it. The last two days of the move. The mattress and sofa are going over today. This means that I'll be sleeping in my apartment tonight. 

I'm feeling relatively melancholic and a bit on edge. I've generally been feeling good about things but today I think I woke up too early. 

I have no internet at te new place. It'll take a while to sort that out. I'll only have my phone and my Internet plan sucks on my phone atm. 

I've got my kindle though so I'll be reading and working of course. I can't wait for Easter so that I can get things sorted out at the new place. Everything is in boxes all over the place.