Wednesday, January 18, 2012


I have not forgotten my Blogger account. Although I have been rather lazy and perhaps even a little reluctant to get back to Blogger.

I have been hibernating basically. Even from Internet a little. I've been on my usual normal life social network but apart from that I haven't been using internet much at all.

I have gotten addicted to a TV series my father got me for christmas. It's a Danish series called "The killing" and it is good. Along with that I've been streaming the BBC Sherlock series as well, an EXCELLENT series that you should watch if you haven't seen it yet.

What's new?.... Hm Nothing really. I've been fighting a really bad cold and what might be turning into sinus infection for the past week. I've been working privately, so not with Co-worker.

As Rob often asks, "how's your brain?" My brain is fine, nothing really going on with my brain at the moment, I'm not over-thinking things which is good. I haven't had contact with the people that get my brain in a whirr lately.

Speaking of Rob we met up online the other day and had a lovely 1 hour conversation. Just chit chat. It was nice. Really nice. It was the type of conversation that keeps me smiling when I think back on it. He's going on holiday in Feb and I've been lazy about booking my ticket to the UK but that is my plan for spring. I just haven't figured out when yet.

There are things going on with work that make it difficult to plan for spring, and there's the fact that my neighbours are tentatively planning on moving out into a new place in March. I think I mentioned it before. I want to rent their place, make it into a private lesson studio and art studio. If I can get extra students teach groups it would pay for itself. If not I could rent it out on occasion to tourists who come in spring and summer. I'm rather excited about the idea. I just hope it works out.

I haven't heard a word from Co-worker. I sent him a Merry Christmas text and a Happy New Year's text, neither of which he responded to. I guess he's just decided to cut all electronic ties with me. He used to show up on my gmail chat, but he doesn't anymore. He's never on facebook anymore either. So bleh.... whatever.

What else has been going on? Hm well my health hasn't been that great recently. Between this horrible cold and my kidneys with probable stones, I've lost some weight (which is never good for me).
I went to my doctor asking to go back to see a Rheumatologist about the Fibromyalgia diagnosis from all those years ago. She basically advised me not to go but gave me the request anyhow. So I'll book it.
I just want to understand a little more about it. My father thinks that if I think about it and worry about it it'll make things worse, that it'll become psychosomatic.  He's probably right, but I do want to get another opinion in any case.
Problem is that I've found connections to kidneys on the fibro symptoms lists and I'd like to get some confirmation.... maybe I'm being a bit hypochondriac about all of this.... but I hate being ill all the time.

Men: I suggest you stop reading here. TMI WARNING

The last little bit of weird trivia about me is that I've started trying a Mooncup.
I was super gung-ho about it when I first started trying it. But at the moment I'm a little miffed. I can't get it to work, it leaks constantly. I have an inverted uterus and I'm wondering if that's the problem or whether it's because the pharmacy gave me the wrong size. They gave me the small rather than the larger I guess. I haven't had children and I'm only 33 so I figured it would work just the same.  I tried it for three days but alas I haven't found a position yet. I've had some unfortunate accidents, some that made me laugh and some that made me cringe in pain. But generally the experience has been neutral. I'm neither hating it nor really liking it. I will try it more... If it didn't leak I'd be really pleased... and use it tons. I'd love to save money on "feminine products"... and even do my part for the environment. I just wish I could get the thing to work.... anyone around use it? any suggestions?


JFBreak said...

Note to self: Head the warning men to stop reading!

Eden said...

Happy 2012, Cande. I know what you mean about needing a break. Hope you feel better soon. It sucks being sick. Positive thinking has been shown to help with pain sometimes, but I hope you are finding ways to manage it through your family and your doc.

As for the TMI thing (men can also stop reading here too ;-)):
I own a cup like yours. It takes some practice, and I recommend wearing a pad/liner when you're getting used to it. The way I minimise accidents is to fold cup sideways, put it in, rotate the cup until it opens (this is critical as you cannot get a good seal if the cup is folded in any way) and then I gently pull it down. At the point of resistance is when I know the cup has formed a good seal. You might have to tilt the cup inside you a litle to get it at the right angle to form a seal but like anything, it takes a little practice. I hope you have better success with it.

Eden said...

Oh, and lubricant helps when you are inserting the cup. It will make it less painful when you're putting it in.

Cande said...

Eden, thanks, I'll try all your suggestions. Although the pain wasn't so much in the entry as the removal, so I probably won't go with any lubricant.

I've tried rotating it, but haven't had any luck with that. But I will persist and try again. Although I do think that there is a pretty good seal since I have such difficulty getting it out. If I don't squeeze the bottom, it won't come out.

I also find it moves around a lot... I end up with the stem to one side or another behind my pelvic bone.

Advizor54 said...

I think the real solution to the MoonCup to to let a friend help you put it in.....(raising hand eagerly)

It's never fun to be sick, but it pays to be well educated on what might be causing it. I'd say keep doing your research, but take the good news just as seriously as the bad news and don't obsess over either one.

And good luck on the neighbor's place, it sounds like a good mid-range solution.