Words

It takes incredible control to speak during an orgasm or sex... At least it does for me. I lose all brainpower and most muscle control during an orgasm. 

I've tried though, god knows I've tried. I think it just takes practice. Speaking should come so naturally that you don't notice it or pay attention to what you are saying really. Fact is that if you are concentrating on words then you can't concentrate on the work at hand (so to speak). 

So my inspiration comes from a sort of tumblr site of audio sexual confessions. Advisor posted it in his list the other day and out of curiosity I checked it out. I have to admit I found many of the confessions quite hot. 

I've had some practice now. Practice makes perfect right? I've practiced a bit with Rob, on one of our late night encounters. I've started practicing on my own now too. I figure it's the best way to learn. All I need is time alone and a starting point. 

A starting point when alone helps a lot. I need to be able to start with a basic fantasy I guess before my brain loses all reasoning power and has my mouth follow on a random rampage of senseless words. 

It's basically just a concept for now. What I want in that moment. When with rob shyness seems to take over and the inhibitions feel strong. Alone I can let go of those and just talk. 

I am starting to realise that words are powerful tools. The ideas and memories behind them are enough to make me cum. It's a new concept to me. I have always been more of a visuals girl, but words may indeed be stronger. 

More practice will tell. 

Helium

You know that feeling?
That feeling where your mind and your body are so full of emotion you feel like it's expanding inside you. It fills you to the point where nothing else can fit and you feel like you'll lift off the ground like a balloon full of helium.
Sometimes it's so strong the only thing you can do is lie down and let it rule your body. You are forced to just let it take over and submit to it.

New place? (and a trip to Jordan!)

What's new?

I have a prospect for an apartment! I'm still not sure whether I'll take it, it's not EXACTLY what I've been looking for, but is so close and the position and price are so great I might take it. 

It's a one bedroom with a tiny kitchen and a separate large living room. It's got a bathroom of course. 

Separate from the apartment there's a sort of storage area under the apartment with two separate rooms. One is small, one is really big but they are not heated. They do have electricity and one room has a faucet where I could install a sink.

What's missing? I'm missing a spare guest room. All the other rooms are there. The question is, how often will people be coming to stay with me? How much do I really need a spare room? Could I scrum up a way to use the basement storage space as a studio space and a spare room?

The other downer is that there's no balcony and no garden. There's a courtyard that is a common area, where people store bikes and mopeds and stuff but it's surrounded by walls, direct sunlight would only get in at high noon. 

There are other more secondary problems, the apt is on a main rd, the windows open out onto the road except for the bedroom which is on the courtyard. The basement windows are at sidewalk level and cars park there, exhaust from the cars would leak in if they were kept open.

There are so many things to factor in, I have a hard time figuring this one out. They need an answer by next week... At the latest, there are others interested.

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In other news bf and I are going to Jordan for the Christmas holidays. I've always wanted to go to Jordan to see Petra and the desert, ever since I saw Indiana Jones and the Quest for the Holy Grail. We're leaving on christmas eve and leaving Jordan on the early morning of the 1st of January, so no Christmas and no New Year's celebrations for us. I kind of prefer it that way, no hassle, no worrying about gifts or anything.
I'm super excited though. I'm just a little worried about the cold nights, but other than that I'm gung-ho.

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Sundae Sex

Jen: Let's say that you have an ice cream sundae right in front of you and you have no spoon. Now, it's a hundred degrees out and you're starving. Now, do you lick the ice cream or do you bite right in? 

Dawson: Bite right in. 

Jen: Too fast. See, first you have to watch the sundae, admire the sundae, then, just before it's about to drip, you let your lips lick around the exterior, savoring every inch. You want that sundae to last a long time... ...but not too long, because then the sundae ends up all over the table instead of in your mouth. But Dawson, if you remember one thing, let it be this...If you don't get the whipped cream all over your face, you're not doing it right. You see what I'm saying? 

Having sex with a woman should be like eating ice-cream. Ok so this quote wasn't specifically about sex, it was about meeting a girl, getting to know her, kissing. But like with life in general it's fractal; it can apply to all aspects of a relationship.

It was from Dawson's Creek if you hadn't recognized the names. I loved this analogy. It was perfect and it stuck with me forever. It's the epitome of what women want.

There are times when a woman just wants to be ravished, taken almost violently and overpowered. That doesn't mean that you can't take your time with her too. That attention is important. It creates atmosphere and tension. It makes a woman cum harder. The build up is slower but it's stronger.

Occasionally you need to just observe, don't rip her clothes off all at once. Look at her, take some distance, watch her. Tie her hands behind her back and then move around her. Remove one thing at a time, barely grazing with your fingers. Kisses, sure, but not too many, not too long. Mix pleasure and pain, ripping/cutting clothes contrasted with slipping them slowly off. Caresses vs spanking or a lover's slap on the face. Naughty words compared to nice ones: she's a gorgeous little slut.

Tease and touch but then stop, dip in and out again, keep your distance. Don't let her control you, you control her. Let her have parts of you but only briefly. Fingers in her mouth, pussy and even ass possibly at the same time even, but then take those things away. Make her suck your cock on her knees but only temporarily, then deny her. Are you strong enough for that? Keep her wanting, she'll be begging you for more.

Just be careful, it's easy to over do the distance and she'll lose interest, it'll get boring. You need to gage how excited she gets, don't let her calm down. You'll understand from her breathing, from her pulse, her moans her eyes as she watches you move.

You need to understand when it's time to let go of the game. When it's time to give in completely. When you should be constant and not stop, if that's what you want. Do you want her to cum or do you want her to linger in limbo? The risk of limbo is that she goes beyond her limit and your work was wasted. You'd have to practically start all over. It depends on the woman, some woman love limbo, being constantly on edge. Others prefer going over the edge because they'll just want more after anyhow.

Me, personally, I go for either. I can linger in limbo for a day or even two. If you make me cum, I'll just be right back at you again in no time anyhow. Either way, boys, you win.