Thursday, December 23, 2010

It's almost Christmas. I'm sure everyone is on holiday and very few readers will be spending their time on internet in the next few days.

I have had very little time to myself lately. I've been home, but so has bf and it's been difficult to sit and write without him asking me what I'm doing.


I caught Rob on line the other day. It was interesting. He asked me lots of questions. I'm usually the one to ask questions. Perhaps he's actually been thinking about my request to know if he really wants to have sex.

He asked me about my "online goals", about whether I'd hit a peak.

There was a lot going on in that conversation. There were a lot of things going through my mind. I still have a lot of doubts and questions that I am scared to ask.

He said was that perhaps it would be easier to organize a threesome instead of dealing with him.

And then there was the brief interval of this conversation:

him-if we were single things would be too easy.
me-it would
-Maybe that's the attraction.
-that's a very good point
-it is.
-Yeah, it's normal that you are attracted to what you can't have
-good point, I'll be an old fat nag ugly soon so it don't matter.


I've had the opportunity to sit and talk to him on my own a few lunches and I have to admit it's a little awkward. I'm not sure if it's because underneath we're both quite shy or what. But we have a hard time figuring out what to say to each other. Things have slowed down at work so I'm not going as often as I'd like so I won't be seeing him as much.





Green Eyed Frenchy said...

A very Merry Christmas to you too, my dear! :)

Anonymous said...



Xmass is going to get you..

I'll be hiding under the bed, its all a little scary and frightening and i don't want to play anymore.

now i need to main line some coffee and get this day in the bag.

have a very bikini christmas. :)

Osbasso said...

Hope you have a very Merry Christmas! And I hope 2011 is an even better year for you!

Anonymous said...

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Advizor54 said...

Have a wonderful Christmas. My you list of wishes be short and the list of blessing be long.


(and I still think Rob's a bit of a nut for not meeting up with you, has he not seen your HNTs???)