I have had very little time to myself lately. I've been home, but so has bf and it's been difficult to sit and write without him asking me what I'm doing.
I caught Rob on line the other day. It was interesting. He asked me lots of questions. I'm usually the one to ask questions. Perhaps he's actually been thinking about my request to know if he really wants to have sex.
He asked me about my "online goals", about whether I'd hit a peak.
There was a lot going on in that conversation. There were a lot of things going through my mind. I still have a lot of doubts and questions that I am scared to ask.
He said was that perhaps it would be easier to organize a threesome instead of dealing with him.
And then there was the brief interval of this conversation:
him-if we were single things would be too easy.
-Maybe that's the attraction.
-that's a very good point
-Yeah, it's normal that you are attracted to what you can't have
-good point, I'll be an old fat nag ugly soon so it don't matter.
I've had the opportunity to sit and talk to him on my own a few lunches and I have to admit it's a little awkward. I'm not sure if it's because underneath we're both quite shy or what. But we have a hard time figuring out what to say to each other. Things have slowed down at work so I'm not going as often as I'd like so I won't be seeing him as much.
MERRY CHRISTMAS BLOGGERS AND READERS!!!