The Flu

I came here with the intention of writing something sexy. I really did. I even had the post partially started in my head except I can't. I'm just not feeling it. The feeling kinda disappeared... *poof* just like that.

I'm on day six of the worst flu I've had in over 10 years. It's going around and 90% of the people I know have had it and yes, it's this bad for everyone. It lasts up to 7 days with high fever and terrible hacking cough. Some people even get nausea, mine was mild luckily.

I feel better, I'm even eating again! Fever's been gone for two days, problem is I feel like I've been kicked from the inside out. I feel like I've done something to my lower ribs or the muscles that connect to my ribs. I can't cough without doubling over and crying, it's especially bad in the morning. The doctor I went to see was foreign and couldn't really understand what I was talking about, when he did finally (possibly) understand he said he thought it was an inflammation of the muscles and to use voltadol gel.
It doesn't really work, it just dulls the pain a little. It still feels like someone is stabbing me every time I cough.

I'm frustrated to tears which is why I'm getting it out here. Apologies.

BF
The bf has been "great" to an extent. He's been the perfect butler, cooking, cleaning, bringing me tea, sitting at the foot of my bed looking at his tablet. He hasn't once caressed me, or hugged me or come anywhere near me. I understood the first 4 days, he was terrified of getting sick... but seriously, I need some physical comforting. It kinda pisses me off.

Rob
On the up side I had some fun chatting with Rob . He even sent me some sexy pics and a video which I haven't been able to fully enjoy yet, though hopefully I will soon. It definitely cheered me up.

Other
Then there's the fact that I was chatting with one of my best friends yesterday and she and her bf finally decided to try having a baby. They've been at it for a month now so I'm guessing it'll happen soon. I'm really happy for them. They've been humming and hawing over it for a while now and so they've finally decided. They also got a super cute new kitten and I am envious of that too. It's damn cute.

Whats up?!

It's been ages since I posted anything about what's been going on in general in my life. So why not. I've got nothing better to do, except take a long hot shower and maybe make myself cum a couple times, but I can do that later.

BF and Life
During the Christmas holidays everything slows down here and I often prefer to be away because I have a very hard time being around myself when I'm not really busy. I'd much rather be exhausted at the end of the day, take a shower and climb into bed to watch TV.

Things with the bf have been very good lately. We've been getting along well. We haven't had a real argument in months except for a little angry outburst while on our little holiday three day trip. We've even had sex, which unfortunately hasn't been happening as often as it should.

Rob
Things with Rob have also been good. We've started on a new little adventure together. We both seem to enjoy it so we'll see how long it lasts. For now it's sexy and fun. And no I probably won't be revealing what the adventure is. Suffice it to say that it has me turned on a lot and craving him more than ever.

Co-W
Today we had an opportunity to talk after work, all alone. It was relaxed and easy. Kinda like old times, mind you we weren't talking about anything interesting.
The other girl we now work with was in on Monday and she was all doe eyed with him, can't wipe the grin off her face. Her grin wipes mine right away. I like her though, she's super cute and super sweet. she reminds me of me and I snap myself out of it. I guess I feel like I should be above and beyond that.

Monday I wore my black faux-leather pants to work. Co-W called me Cat Woman while she got called Bond Girl. I wasn't dressed like Cat Woman mind you. I had a very tasteful red sweater on with a black cardigan. I did not have ears. She was wearing an oversized grey knit sweater and jeans.... not sure why she got Bond Girl.... Maybe because she has slightly exotic traits, she's got short brown curly hair, dark skin, dark eyes but they are almost middle eastern... hard to define.

W00T! Celebrate Good Times Woohoo!

 So I've received an email from Rori at Between My Sheets letting me know that I am on her Top 100 Sex Blogger List. There are some oldies and some newbies, hopefully I'll manage to check out a few new bloggers this year. I need to update my reading list. 

So I guess thanks are in order, I owe it all to my readers and whoever nominated me. I'm rather surprised to be honest, I never would have imagined making it to a top blogger list. 

So THANK YOU!!

I feel honoured and loved.

Leather Pleasure

What happens when he gets inside my head? 

I want to cum over and over again. 

We had very hot steamy fun on Sunday. He sat and talked dirty to me for... three or four Os. He just watched and I love watching him watch me. I'm not sure there's anything that can turn me on more. 

Monday he asked me for pictures. I'd bought new bras so I got dressed up, all slutty...combat boots and fishnets lol.  By the third or fourth picture we were on Skype. 

Today I bought a pair of black faux leather pants. They were on sale and I've been watching too much Buffy, but they look damn good (if I may say so) so I sent some more pictures. 

I left him to his own devices and he left me to mine today but it was yummy. I enjoyed myself again.  

Answers

On my last post I got some great suggestions from Anon. I will consider them each.
I think for most of the suggestions though there needs to be an openness about my decision that I'm not sure I'm ready to share with the bf just yet. Apart from my being rather shy and not 100% able to talk to the bf about sex easily, It's always such a difficult topic with him, it's difficult to bring up because it makes him more uncomfortable than me which in turn makes me uncomfortable.

-Make time to be together without distractions (no phone, TV, computer)
Easy to say, not so easy to do... however it is worth a try and if we manged to talk about this whole thing it would probably get woven into our conversation.

-Find reasons to get in bed (invite him to spend the night with nothing scheduled the next morning)
This doesn't happen often unfortunately. I work weeks, he works weekends, while he doesn't often have anything on Sat or Sunday morning he's not up to much after work on those evenings, during the day on Saturday I work, and Sunday generally gets taken up by the rest of life.... seeing friends etc.

-Find excuses to get naked (massage, shower, lingerie fashion show)This could work. I'd have to find the right things, massages work, shower possibly... fashion show: unlikely... long story, but suffice it to say he was a jerk and I was burned.

-I also think that getting over to his place where he feels like he is in charge might help. He likes to be dominant, you like to be controlled, perhaps arriving with a cute outfit, a chocker, and kneeling as you greet him might do the trick.Yes, this makes sense and I'm sure we'll take some of our energy over to his place too. He is not the dominating type, he is quite the opposite, I think he prefers to be dominated. I am often too shy to take any steps there so unless he says something to me about it we'll just play along the lines we always have. I've shown him how to be slightly dominating with me but more than that he won't go. As for showing up in cute outfits... again it's connected to the burn from a surprise I set for bf years ago and I'm not going through that humiliation again.

-you also might want to share your goal with him. If my partner set such a goal I'd certainly help them meet it. 
See first paragraph... yes, probably the best course of action let's hope I can manage it.

Has anyone here ever tried scheduling sex, like totally writing it into a calendar? Do you think it would be a mood killer or would it be like a fun play-date?

On Top.

Sex with the bf is always good. Every time we have sex I say this. Problem is we don't have sex nearly as often as we should for a series of reasons. My one and only NY resolution this year is to have more sex with the bf. I'm going to make it my mission. Not entirely sure how.

We have started out well though. When the bf and I have sex it's not usually a marathon, though we do those on occasion too. Yesterday was simple, probably half hour of very good stimulating sex. It's the kind that gives me butterflies when I think about it after the fact. I think back on different things and they turn me on.... He knows exactly what buttons to push and when.

The turn on this round was me on top wearing just a tank top. He pulled my tank top down, exposing my breasts through an arm hole and the neck, pulled both my nipples as I fucked him from above and came hard.

"She only cums when she's on top..."
 

It's not always true... but often. 

 

*not me*

Have I ever mentioned how getting fucked in clothes turns me on? Sure... naked is easier, it's more comfortable, but clothes are just fucking sexy. Including socks. lol I know.... but girls in socks turn me on, guys not so much.