I've been grinning again.
It's all Rob's fault of course. It started earlier this week with him getting ideas of FFM scenarios, he sent me messages, then I wanted to know what videos he'd been watching and he sent me a few things that distracted me from the typing job I have on right now. I would type 5 pages then get myself off, type another 5 pages and get myself off again. It's also the heat. It's hot here all of a sudden. Hot enough to sit still and sweat and that's the yummiest kind of heat, the sexiest heat. It makes me so fucking horny.
Yesterday I was typing again and we started with iMessages back and forth. Slowly working up to pictures of me in summer attire, short shorts and crop tops, then on to my new bikinis. He was supposed to be cleaning out his garage. I was supposed to be typing.
I knew I wouldn't resist long after showing off bikinis. I knew I'd have to get myself off eventually and I told him so. He said he'd watch.
Shortly after, (a page and a half typed up later), I asked him what bikini I should wear for him. "You choose".
We met on Skype. I was wearing the bikini he picked out for me last year, (he helped me buy it). It's white with coloured puzzle pieces and candy like bobbles. The bottom came off fast, and I came shortly after that. I went on to number two as well and left it at that since I was dripping from the heat. Temperature as well as sexually. He simply talked into my ear, begged me to cum for him. It was perfect, as usual. He said it wasn't fair, and why wasn't I bent over his kitchen counter.
After we chatted about a few things. He mentioned he'd been cleaning out his garage and had found the bowls he'd made with me during our pottery class (2 years ago?!). He wants me to have them. I'd be happy to have them. He admitted that he was putting together a package for me. I could barely believe it. I didn't want to get my hopes up. I wasn't sure if he'd actually send it or not.
Today I got the text that it's been sent. Hence the grinning.
Of course that's mixed with some anxiety. Mostly around explaining the objects coming in the mail and why and who, etc, but I'm sure it'll be fine.
I love it when I can't keep myself from grinning. I know I shouldn't.
Someone's going to notice, someone's going to look at me and figure me
out. It's a grin that's so different from when you just find something
funny. It's a whole facial expression, I can feel that the muscles are
different than just looking at funny cat videos on FB, or at someone's
On a scarier note, it dawned on me, fairly recently that if Rob's wrist doesn't heal properly from the pin surgery then he won't have any more excuses to travel, which will be the end of us meeting up. I don't want to think about it, I prefer to live in ignorant bliss for now. I'm sure things will be fine, but yes, it's in the back of my mind. Very selfish of me, I do worry about his wrist healing in general for his sake, but I am also very selfish yes.
Also this happened...
The bf bought his mother a smartphone. He's been
using everyone else's phones to help her learn. Yesterday he insisted I unlock my
phone for him so he could call his mother. Why he didn't ask me to call
her I don't know. He seemed suspicious, but oddly enough I haven't done
anything suspicious in his presence in ages. So he browsed my contact
list, I was anxious the whole time, I used the excuse of showing him how
to find his mother's name to see what he was doing. The problem isn't
my contact list, that's safe, there are so many names and numbers there
no-one would be able to decipher who is who. The problem is that I'd
just finished texting Rob. There were texts about fucking and I hadn't
deleted them... hypothetically, if he'd seen those texts and not understood but scrolled through he'd have found the pictures. I rarely delete texts these days because with the phone
being fingerprint locked there's no real need. Now I'm thinking I
should. I am a sentimental twat and want to hold on to everything so I
can't just delete these things, first I need to save them, then I can
delete them. For now I've moved my messages icon out of plain sight. I suppose that will work for now.