...but I can't get HNT up without bf noticing and I've been too busy to schedule the post.
I will tell anyone who's reading though that the sex did not happen yesterday, and all the advice was probably the best there was, because I chose my battles wrong.
I think I'm just a bit on edge these days for a series of reasons... but none the less bf has already gotten over the hour long incredibly frustrating conversation from last night and he's been trying to get my mind off it all day long.
Perhaps things will remedy fast... hopefully.
Rob
On a separate note, I have been thinking about Rob so that I can get to sleep at night. I've got so much going on in my head that I haven't been falling asleep. I've been anxious about work and other stuff. So Rob is my saving grace whether he likes it or not.
He has been lurking, which I love, it means he thinks about me randomly. I miss him. When I get like this I miss him more than usual. He's my guru... lol.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
oh no...
The probability of sex is quickly slipping.
What do you do when you find cigarette ash. Do you say something and risk an argument and no sex. Or do you ignore it, have it on your mind for the next while but have sex?
What do you do when you find cigarette ash. Do you say something and risk an argument and no sex. Or do you ignore it, have it on your mind for the next while but have sex?
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
all Quiet on the Western Front.
All Quiet on the Western Front... especially on the sex scene. I was hoping that bf would make a move, but it looks like I'll have to make it.
Rob
I went to bed last night super early, like 10 o'clock, I'm just not used to getting up at 7:30 to go to work and working until 9pm. This morning I woke up to thoughts of Rob. Rob in my bed. I woke up to the lovely thought of him sucking my clit, and then pulling me onto his lap, making me ride him slow and deep, while both sitting upright. he then pushes me back slowly, arm hooked under the small of my back and my shoulders and head back on the bed. One of his hands roams my torso, breasts and neck, while he fucks me harder and deeper. I came damned hard to those thoughts. I had to be careful not to groan out loud, bf was in just the other room, and I would have been heard in a totally silent house. I gasped though... completely involuntarily.
I then turned on my phone and was pleasantly surprised that I got a text from Rob that I wasn't expecting. He's on holiday skiing. He was on line last night like at 10pm my time. I was fast asleep in bed... darned it all...
Anyhow he left me a really nice email that I could easily cum again to.
Co-Worker
Seeing as this is another week back at work I get to see Co-Worker. I'm sad to say that he will be going away for 3 weeks in March. South Africa... word is that he might be thinking of moving there with his gf.. I'd be sad very sad if he did that.
Nothing much of worth there either. Today he walked past me, stared me straight in the eyes and continued to walk while staring straight at me. I actually turned my whole body to stare at him, it was a kind of staring game I guess, both our eyes were huge, neither of us smiled. But I suppose it was kinda funny but strange.
At lunch though he kept preening, he reminded me of my parrot. Sitting there, glancing at me, fixing his hair, his sweater, rubbing his eyes, glancing at me, straightening his tray, smoothing his sleeves, fiddling with his fingers, glancing at me...All very quickly too... not normal speed. He does tend to be a bit anxious in general, he's always moving, but it was a bit over the top at lunch, it looked like he didn't know what to do with himself. Or maybe it was a subconscious attempt to attract attention.
Anyhow I need to get off... again... I think it's the work tension.
mumblemumble... argmeloshmfh... k back to work...
heheh I wonder how many people will come to my blog looking for info on All Quiet on the Western Front. lol
Rob
I went to bed last night super early, like 10 o'clock, I'm just not used to getting up at 7:30 to go to work and working until 9pm. This morning I woke up to thoughts of Rob. Rob in my bed. I woke up to the lovely thought of him sucking my clit, and then pulling me onto his lap, making me ride him slow and deep, while both sitting upright. he then pushes me back slowly, arm hooked under the small of my back and my shoulders and head back on the bed. One of his hands roams my torso, breasts and neck, while he fucks me harder and deeper. I came damned hard to those thoughts. I had to be careful not to groan out loud, bf was in just the other room, and I would have been heard in a totally silent house. I gasped though... completely involuntarily.
I then turned on my phone and was pleasantly surprised that I got a text from Rob that I wasn't expecting. He's on holiday skiing. He was on line last night like at 10pm my time. I was fast asleep in bed... darned it all...
Anyhow he left me a really nice email that I could easily cum again to.
Co-Worker
Seeing as this is another week back at work I get to see Co-Worker. I'm sad to say that he will be going away for 3 weeks in March. South Africa... word is that he might be thinking of moving there with his gf.. I'd be sad very sad if he did that.
Nothing much of worth there either. Today he walked past me, stared me straight in the eyes and continued to walk while staring straight at me. I actually turned my whole body to stare at him, it was a kind of staring game I guess, both our eyes were huge, neither of us smiled. But I suppose it was kinda funny but strange.
At lunch though he kept preening, he reminded me of my parrot. Sitting there, glancing at me, fixing his hair, his sweater, rubbing his eyes, glancing at me, straightening his tray, smoothing his sleeves, fiddling with his fingers, glancing at me...All very quickly too... not normal speed. He does tend to be a bit anxious in general, he's always moving, but it was a bit over the top at lunch, it looked like he didn't know what to do with himself. Or maybe it was a subconscious attempt to attract attention.
Anyhow I need to get off... again... I think it's the work tension.
mumblemumble... argmeloshmfh... k back to work...
heheh I wonder how many people will come to my blog looking for info on All Quiet on the Western Front. lol
Friday, February 4, 2011
Can't think of interesting titles anymore.
BF
So the final word on what's been going on is that we had another outburst, we had another silly argument. It was last Saturday night, I was in a good mood because I'd had a good day with bf, and I had organized some of my trip to N. America with some friends of mine and I wanted to tell him what I'd worked out. He gets home and starts reaming me out for shit that was so stupid, so unnecessary. Anyhow I got angry, he realized how unfriendly he'd been and came to apologize. When he did I couldn't help but burst into tears. I confessed that I hadn't gotten over the previous week's events. He apologized once again and told me all sorts of "nice" things, things he never says until he sees me cry. Often these things make me cry more, not because they make me sad, but because it's a bit of a sensory overload I suppose. Well he ended up saying he that he wanted to give me a back rub to make up for it and gave me a half assed job in bed. Then we got talking about our trip to N. America this summer and ended up talking details until 1 am. Still no sex... but that will come soon. I guess that's the end. I won't be mentioning it anymore. And I think he got the point.
PORN
I checked out some gay porn the other day when I had a bit of time. I have to admit that some of it turned me on, and I think more turned me off. I can easily watch a guy sucking another guy off. That was hot. I watched a few videos of a few guys fucking, but I couldn't get into it. I think the problem was that I couldn't relate to the situation. When I watch porn I need to be able to imagine what it feels like. I'm not sure, it could be that the videos I watched weren't the right kind. I did like the bj stuff though.
BLOGS
There are a few new blogs around so I've updated my list. One I have become very fond of is Orgasm's of Johanna. Another newbie is Joe Nobody. I'm sure I've mentioned Amorous Ebony Chronicles before, Advizor's blog Free Advice is worth what you pay for it. They're all excellent and there are more in the side bar on the right. I unfortunately have so little time and freedom to do a lot of reading and keeping up. But if I had the freedom I'd probably never get anything done with all the great reading around.
Enjoy :-)
BTW Does anyone know what happened to Library Vixen has she moved?
BUFFY
Don't laugh. I have rediscovered Buffy the Vampire slayer. I love it. Always have. The re-runs are on late at night here so I can't watch them while I'm working. But like tonight I'm up late writing and watching Buffy. I've had a bit of a thing for Spike... I didn't like him at first, but his personality grew on me and now I kinda drool over him. Very sexy. Plus Sarah Michelle Gellar is hot.
So the final word on what's been going on is that we had another outburst, we had another silly argument. It was last Saturday night, I was in a good mood because I'd had a good day with bf, and I had organized some of my trip to N. America with some friends of mine and I wanted to tell him what I'd worked out. He gets home and starts reaming me out for shit that was so stupid, so unnecessary. Anyhow I got angry, he realized how unfriendly he'd been and came to apologize. When he did I couldn't help but burst into tears. I confessed that I hadn't gotten over the previous week's events. He apologized once again and told me all sorts of "nice" things, things he never says until he sees me cry. Often these things make me cry more, not because they make me sad, but because it's a bit of a sensory overload I suppose. Well he ended up saying he that he wanted to give me a back rub to make up for it and gave me a half assed job in bed. Then we got talking about our trip to N. America this summer and ended up talking details until 1 am. Still no sex... but that will come soon. I guess that's the end. I won't be mentioning it anymore. And I think he got the point.
PORN
I checked out some gay porn the other day when I had a bit of time. I have to admit that some of it turned me on, and I think more turned me off. I can easily watch a guy sucking another guy off. That was hot. I watched a few videos of a few guys fucking, but I couldn't get into it. I think the problem was that I couldn't relate to the situation. When I watch porn I need to be able to imagine what it feels like. I'm not sure, it could be that the videos I watched weren't the right kind. I did like the bj stuff though.
BLOGS
There are a few new blogs around so I've updated my list. One I have become very fond of is Orgasm's of Johanna. Another newbie is Joe Nobody. I'm sure I've mentioned Amorous Ebony Chronicles before, Advizor's blog Free Advice is worth what you pay for it. They're all excellent and there are more in the side bar on the right. I unfortunately have so little time and freedom to do a lot of reading and keeping up. But if I had the freedom I'd probably never get anything done with all the great reading around.
Enjoy :-)
BTW Does anyone know what happened to Library Vixen has she moved?
BUFFY
Don't laugh. I have rediscovered Buffy the Vampire slayer. I love it. Always have. The re-runs are on late at night here so I can't watch them while I'm working. But like tonight I'm up late writing and watching Buffy. I've had a bit of a thing for Spike... I didn't like him at first, but his personality grew on me and now I kinda drool over him. Very sexy. Plus Sarah Michelle Gellar is hot.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
HNT cowgirl boots
Sorry I had no time to actually get this with a click thru, but I figured it's just the same if I post them both right?? :) I just played with the colour of the chair and removed background items as usual
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
London again... (please don't roll your eyes!)
Right... so I've done it. I've booked my flight over to London for the 3rd and probably the last time for a good while. I'll be going in mid May for a Roger Waters' concert. I am also going back to N. America to visit family and friends this summer in August mostly. But I will not have the money to travel for a while after all of that.
I texted Rob yesterday to let him know that I booked the tickets,
He knows that I'm not putting any kind of expectation or weight on this. I'm just looking forward to a cool concert. Whatever comes, comes... I know that the online side of things will remain no matter what happens, that's what's important.
So Rob texted me last night to tell me he was on line. It was a bit of a surprise honestly. When I tell him that I've made some sort of commitment to come to London he is usually pretty quiet for a while. This time we talked quite a bit even. He said that he was looking at hotels in a town outside of London. We decided a day even. There was a constant flow of surprising comments.
I have to say that he is unique. There's something about his online behaviour that is so different from the usual cyber chat stuff and it turns me on so much. I can't describe it either. There's, you know, the usual, "oh slide your hands down your panties, ok now touch your clit..." type stuff. And he just doesn't do that. He knows how my mind works. And he pushes all the right buttons. It's like he climbs inside my mind and works from the inside out.
Last night he asked me what I thought about when I'm getting myself off. I told him a quick fantasy off the top of my head: He takes me from behind, me kneeling on the bed, my hair in his hands pulling my head and back into an uncomfortable arch as he pounds me, then he lets go, pushes the top half of my body and my head onto the bed, ass high in the air as he continues.
And he said "why do you think like that?" There was obviously no tone in the chat message, so no way to gage his voice. But I knew what he meant.
I told him that it turned me on, that I like the submissive angle, but that I didn't know why.
He said that he wanted to find out, he wanted to help me find out.
I texted Rob yesterday to let him know that I booked the tickets,
He knows that I'm not putting any kind of expectation or weight on this. I'm just looking forward to a cool concert. Whatever comes, comes... I know that the online side of things will remain no matter what happens, that's what's important.
So Rob texted me last night to tell me he was on line. It was a bit of a surprise honestly. When I tell him that I've made some sort of commitment to come to London he is usually pretty quiet for a while. This time we talked quite a bit even. He said that he was looking at hotels in a town outside of London. We decided a day even. There was a constant flow of surprising comments.
I have to say that he is unique. There's something about his online behaviour that is so different from the usual cyber chat stuff and it turns me on so much. I can't describe it either. There's, you know, the usual, "oh slide your hands down your panties, ok now touch your clit..." type stuff. And he just doesn't do that. He knows how my mind works. And he pushes all the right buttons. It's like he climbs inside my mind and works from the inside out.
Last night he asked me what I thought about when I'm getting myself off. I told him a quick fantasy off the top of my head: He takes me from behind, me kneeling on the bed, my hair in his hands pulling my head and back into an uncomfortable arch as he pounds me, then he lets go, pushes the top half of my body and my head onto the bed, ass high in the air as he continues.
And he said "why do you think like that?" There was obviously no tone in the chat message, so no way to gage his voice. But I knew what he meant.
I told him that it turned me on, that I like the submissive angle, but that I didn't know why.
He said that he wanted to find out, he wanted to help me find out.
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