So the final word on what's been going on is that we had another outburst, we had another silly argument. It was last Saturday night, I was in a good mood because I'd had a good day with bf, and I had organized some of my trip to N. America with some friends of mine and I wanted to tell him what I'd worked out. He gets home and starts reaming me out for shit that was so stupid, so unnecessary. Anyhow I got angry, he realized how unfriendly he'd been and came to apologize. When he did I couldn't help but burst into tears. I confessed that I hadn't gotten over the previous week's events. He apologized once again and told me all sorts of "nice" things, things he never says until he sees me cry. Often these things make me cry more, not because they make me sad, but because it's a bit of a sensory overload I suppose. Well he ended up saying he that he wanted to give me a back rub to make up for it and gave me a half assed job in bed. Then we got talking about our trip to N. America this summer and ended up talking details until 1 am. Still no sex... but that will come soon. I guess that's the end. I won't be mentioning it anymore. And I think he got the point.
I checked out some gay porn the other day when I had a bit of time. I have to admit that some of it turned me on, and I think more turned me off. I can easily watch a guy sucking another guy off. That was hot. I watched a few videos of a few guys fucking, but I couldn't get into it. I think the problem was that I couldn't relate to the situation. When I watch porn I need to be able to imagine what it feels like. I'm not sure, it could be that the videos I watched weren't the right kind. I did like the bj stuff though.
There are a few new blogs around so I've updated my list. One I have become very fond of is Orgasm's of Johanna. Another newbie is Joe Nobody. I'm sure I've mentioned Amorous Ebony Chronicles before, Advizor's blog Free Advice is worth what you pay for it. They're all excellent and there are more in the side bar on the right. I unfortunately have so little time and freedom to do a lot of reading and keeping up. But if I had the freedom I'd probably never get anything done with all the great reading around.
BTW Does anyone know what happened to Library Vixen has she moved?
Don't laugh. I have rediscovered Buffy the Vampire slayer. I love it. Always have. The re-runs are on late at night here so I can't watch them while I'm working. But like tonight I'm up late writing and watching Buffy. I've had a bit of a thing for Spike... I didn't like him at first, but his personality grew on me and now I kinda drool over him. Very sexy. Plus Sarah Michelle Gellar is hot.