Despite a slew of good things that have been happening around me and for me I'm feeling down. I got a huge tax return of 1000 euros, yay. I got a package from my dad with books, music and movies... yay. I got given a whole bunch of cool broken watches to make stuff with, yay. I got the liquid fimo I was looking for that I was told didn't exist here in my little town, yay.
And yet I'm still feeling down. I wonder if it's like the down after the high of a drug, maybe Rob was my high and now I'm feeling down. Maybe it's just the weather that has been sucking some serious ass lately rainy and cold like winter. Today is the first bit of warm sun I've seen in over a week.
I even went to lunch with friends today, and still couldn't pick myself up. I get the feeling that bf has figured something out. He keeps repeating that I'm tired of him, he says it a few times a week. I nod jokingly and smile, but deep down something isn't right. Things are slowly falling apart, but it's happening so slowly that it's almost invisible. It could take years to degrade completely. I wonder what is best.
Wow, I'm boring. Same old same old.
Here's something interesting... I got an email from the Italian chatroulette guy. He's going to be in the area around the 10th of July... He asked me if I'd be around. I answered that I would but that bf was home and I wasn't sure how to orchestrate a simple meeting for coffee. I honestly just want to meet up for coffee. nothing more. He answered that I should send the bf off on holiday, little does he know about the huge fiasco in bf's life at the moment.
I'm hoping something will work out for a friendly meeting.