Friday, December 30, 2011

Accepting myself in different ways.

I haven't been on in ages due to the holidays. My dad came and went, it was nice to see him although unfortunately he and his wife caught the flu on the way here and were sick most of the time. It was pretty frustrating for everyone.

But what I'm really here to talk about is butch lesbian girls.
Ok so what got me on this topic was a character on a reality tv show.
Now to make things confusing she looks A LOT like a cute guy and with the dubbing into Italian I couldn't figure out whether she was a girl or a guy so I looked her up. But to be honest I found her hot, finding out that she is a girl almost turns me on more. It's enticing. I've never been totally attracted to women... I mean I love a woman's body, but I've never found a woman that turns me on just thinking about her. But this woman did and that surprised me.

I haven't had sex in ages. I've only

I have possibly found a solution to all my problems. My neighbours are moving away in March. I might take into consideration renting it and then subletting to tourists on occasion while using it as my own studio space.

hmmm

what else....

gah, I remember what it was I was thinking about....

I believe that I've never really liked my body. I probably have a hard time accepting myself for some reason. This is partially why I do what I do... why I'm constantly looking for approval or praise about it. It's something that I've known about myself or at least thought about myself but never wrote it out or admitted to it. So there it is.... in black and white I probably need to work on that.

Oh and I don't like skin... in general... Never look at it too closely it's pretty nasty.




6 comments:

John said...

Good luck to you, it seems this is one of my resolutions too, I don't like myself very much either so am working on it, Happy new year to you and may it be the best for you ever. It sounds like you are going to be busy!

Michael said...

mmm interesting. Just for the record ... I like your body ... a lot ... and the more skin the better

Mike

James said...

I agree with Mike on this one!

DOG3OY said...

i like your body better than i like my body.

my body has lots of funny bits and hair in inaproprate places that needs attending to when people give me funny looks.

i'll happly swap bodies with you, mmmmm just a day of playing with my self in your body....

Johanna said...

I know I've never been, nor will I ever be, close to having a body such as yours, so I was surprised to read this post... but perhaps it's a female curse of some sort, to always be discontented with your own looks?

I've never liked my body much either... but for me, focusing on how my body actually performs very well a lot of the time has done wonders. It has a lot to do with age - I'm old enough for weaknesses to surface, one after another... and I think that has made me more thankful for the things that actually do work (and they outnumber the things that don't, of course, by about a million to one, if you start thinking about it). And I think that's the key to accepting/liking your own body - don't focus on looks, focus on function instead. Looks are for others, function is for yourself.

I'm not much for exercise, but when I've managed to keep it up long enough to feel strong, that has made me feel better about myself. Having kids. Achieving wonderful orgasms. (And creating the most fascinating and immediate reactions in men, or even in other women, just by showing some skin ;-) ). The female body is so remarkably cabable...

Anonymous said...

I like ur body, a whole whole lot.

bp