Today was a day that I might remember for a while. It was a shitty day but it definitely had it's sparkling moments of wonder. There are a few reasons for this.
I've still been having health issues, so I was in a shitty mood about that for the past two days. I had a fight with the bf today possibly due to my shitty mood, but he hasn't been much help either. I saw my doc who wasn't helpful at all and basically told me that I'd tried all the meds she knew of and just pointed me in the direction of a specialist which is going to cost an arm and a leg.
The flip side though is that I got a lovely long email from Rob and a text saying he'd booked the hotel for our meeting. It made me smile uncontrollably and just feel so much better. It's about all I can think of these days. My mind just keeps wandering to that and people notice and often point it out.
Today I also had a longish conversation with co-worker. I popped my head in at work to say hello, I wasn't working just hanging out and even with the other staff there we got to talking. People were asking how I was doing health wise and one of the staff said that I just need to get out of the country, move somewhere warm (with a better climate) and get a new bf, a new life, you know just get out.
Co-worker didn't hear that but when the weather conversation continued (it's been really unusually cold and wet here, summer is super late) he said "you know, we got it all wrong, you and I... we should have got married and moved to Brazil." Don't ask me my reaction, I don't remember, I imagine I laughed. I think I agreed too. And something tells me he wasn't far off from being serious.
When the rest of the staff had gone to lunch I lingered and we talked some more. Talked about life and our present situations with work and such. He mentioned that he could tell my head was whirring, that I'm distracted by all the thoughts going through my mind. I like his acuteness (no pun intended), he notices every little thing with me. I barely notice those details for myself half the time. He also knows there's a lot going on with me. He pics up on it fast and he turns and tells me to smile.
There's nothing I can do about it. I just really like him.