Thursday, January 16, 2014
I've had an intense couple of days and I'm probably really a bit on edge which amplifies things too, but seriously I've had enough of people lately.
I got the apartment, I'm happy. I'm excited and all people can do is say "what if" and "why" and "bad idea"... The worst was yesterday though. I went to a party, a friend of mine's b-day party. I knew 90% of the people there, and it wasn't a huge group but everyone knows what's going on.
I have this neighbour who was there with his gf, I've mentioned him before, and I'm only saying this because I want to pinpoint that he was one of the most supportive people during this process, he was also the first to know what I was planning on doing.
His gf approached me and the subject of moving. She said I was making a big mistake, that the apartment I got was in the worst location possible, and that I'd really regret moving out of where I am and that the whole problem is the bf and if he got (the fuck) out from under my feet I'd be better off where I am. The work space is not what I need, and anyhow "How much do you sell?? How much do you plan on selling your art??".
That! That last phrase has me pissed off. Sure I responded with ease in the moment, I said that selling isn't the point. the point is producing, making, getting the ideas out of my f-ing brain.
WTF though? Seriously. The whole point of me moving out was to get THAT space, to be able to make things without sound bothering my f-ing OCD neighbour who can't deal with people wearing runners when they're home because it makes noise.
The two of them ganged up on me, they said that if we had a referendum right then at the party and voted on who thinks I made a good choice everyone would say no. I found it really unfair.
She even came up to me after and asked if I was angry. I assured her I wasn't, and that was the truth in that moment, I'd had a couple glasses of wine, I was happy yesterday. I even thought that having them come up with the negative side I'd be more convinced of my choices, which I still feel relatively sure about.... but today, after some more unhappy comments from the bf I feel like everything is against me.
Frustrated and angry.
That is all.