Sunday, September 4, 2016

Hi! Hello! Hey!

Yep, I'm back.... here on the blog I mean. I got back from holidays a while ago now but I've been busy. That's not to say that I haven't had time to blog, I probably have, I've just been using that time in other ways.Work, beach, boyfriend.

First things first. How did the holiday go?
It started off terribly. We had a massive argument on day two. I think It was a combination of things, a lot of which was me still being really angry at him and not able to let things go. Every little thing seemed personal. If he ignored my street directions while he was driving I just automatically assumed it was because he didn't think my map was good enough, or that my directions were correct... There was some of that I think, I mean after I mentioned it to him, after the argument, he got much better at taking directions from me.TBH I can't even remember the rest of the argument but it lasted 2 full days. I remember one thing though that really made me angry and the reason why it lasted 2 days instead of just one and a half. On day two I came up to him and said, "do you want to talk?" and he refused. This was after a full day of cold shoulder. I personally have never sent him away if he wanted to talk. I have asked to put off a conversation because I had to work in 20 minutes and didn't want to get into anything, but I have never downright refused to talk to him if he came up to me.

So that day, I left, I went on a tour of the city we were staying in, alone, and had a lovely time. I took pictures and shared them on social media, I visited a castle and its herb garden, I had expensive iced coffee in a fancy café that he'd never have done with me (he's cheap, I don't mind most times but sometimes I like to treat myself), I had a grand time.

The rest of the holiday went really well. It is a beautiful part of the world and the beaches are especially spectacular, and I've seen some amazing beaches, Thailand, Philippines, Indonesia, but these were right up there with the best of them for beauty.


So what else is up... 
I haven't been well. Even while on holiday I was not well. I have been slightly unwell for about 3 months now. I don't know what's going on, I had blood tests done and nothing much showed up, so now I have to get a couple other things checked to see what's going on. I think that's another reason why I've been so quiet recently. If I am home alone, which has been rare recently, I have been nursing a sore stomach or something. So a lot of laying around watching movies, laying on the beach, hanging with friends and yeah quite a bit of work too. 

Today is the first weekend since we got back where the bf is working so I'm home alone. I got a couple texts off Rob today. But apart from that nothing else is going on. It's really super tame around here.

Last week at work, on Friday morning I wore shorts to work, I wear shorts to work often, it's not a new thing, but Co-W must have been horny because he looked at me from behind and growled "tight", (it wasn't a reference to my shorts being tight either (they weren't), but the word is used only in connection to muscle and tone). He then made huffing/grunting noises like an animal and mumbled something about my legs.

So yeah, that's my post holiday update! I hope everyone out in cyber-stalking-space is good.


Anonymous said...

Wow, I hope the doctors are able to figure out what's bothering you. You've talked about it for a long time. Maybe it's time to head back to somewhere the doctors know what they are talking about.

I'm glad you found some bright spots during the holiday. I love traveling by myself. My food, my schedule, my pictures, it is wonderful.

Fellow Canuck said...

So hope this trip brings about better everything for you.
Have you turned into a bronze godess? What is your view on tan lines?
Also a question I have always wanted to ask...where in Canada are you from?

Peter Princip said...

I heard a wonderful comment the other day that addresses what you experienced, and many of experience. The couple stated that nobody argues about the big things. People do not fight about their partner quiet rejection of their dreams and inability to openly commit to honest sexual intimacy. People do not fight about ones trauma from losing a parent to cancer at a young age and not having a strong nurturing influence to demonstrate unconditional love.

We fight about the fucking directions to the restaurant, or the toilet seat, or that "you NEVER listen to me..."

I always say, the "thing" is never the "THING"'s always about something deeper. For me those things are iceberg deep, as they are with many people. Really dealing with the "THING" would change everything forever...and nobody likes change. So we have it out in little ways...little battles...little victories...little defeats.

So rather than risk the end of the relationship in order to heal...we slowly bleed out...death by a thousand paper cuts...

What I am saying is...I am in the same boat...

Fellow Canuck said...

Damm too much time between posts. Please more posts.