Thursday, September 6, 2012

My Own Private Mind Fuck.

In a hotel room, first day, first few minutes in the room. My side of the conversation:

"I'm not undressing you this time. I'm not going down on your first. You're gonna have to work for it this time."

*leaning over the desk, in front of the mirror* "Spank me.... Harder. Go on."

*laughing* "is that all you've got?"
*gasping* "you can do better than that."
*panting* "fuck that's good. More please, don't stop... both sides... make me red."

*dripping* "Go down boy, now... slow.... slower" *pushing and pulling away, teasing, creating diversions, kissing, moving, turning, standing, sitting*

"Do you want me?"
"Do you want to fuck me?"
"Am I your little slut?
"Are you going to fuck me like your personal slut?"
"I've been waiting for this for months."
"Fuck me"
"Fuck me"
"Please, please, fuck me"
"Fuck me like the little slut I am"
"I want to feel you deep inside me"
"Use me"
"Hurt me"
"Make me cum"

*whispered in your ear as I cum, almost a whiney beg.* "Make me suck your cock now. I want to taste myself on you"
"I want to lick you clean"
"Make me gag on your cock please."

*coming up for air* "I can't get enough of your cock. I adore your cock." *Diving down for more*
*coming up for air again* "Watch me make you cum. I want you to cum on my face, my tits, my tummy"
*just as you're filling my mouth again* "Cum for me."
*hand on my clit, hand on my nipple, staring up at you from the floor* "Cum on me. You're going to cum on me 'cause I'm your little slut right?"

*licking my fingers clean* "Thank you. That was yummy."


When I have a shower I often meditate. It's my space. A space where I can't hear anything, see anything or really emotionally feel anything. I just have the sensation of warm water running over my body, over my hair, my ears and I think. My mind wanders and I allow myself to get completely lost in thought.

Yesterday I had a shower and my mind went on it's usual rampage, from one topic to the next. Mostly it lingered on a conversation I'd love to have during sex with Rob. I dream of being as good with spoken words as I am writing them. My voice cracks with the slightest hint of emotion, whether that be embarrassment, sadness, anger, heat... whatever, it cracks and I hate it. It somehow externalizes emotions I'd rather hide. I want to overcome those emotions by letting the words out, but they crack under the weight of that emotion and I fear saying them for how they will sound. Weak.  I could whisper at first. That would keep things more solid I think, at least to start... then I think it would ease up.


Ebony Panther said...

aaaaaaaaannnnnnnnndddddddddd I need a cold shower now...a very, VERY cold shower.

rachel-xx said...

Oh Sweetie, I have missed you.

Max said...

Fuck that's hot. Smoking hot. Just wow. :-)

Cande said...

Thanks Ebony and Max. I'm glad you boys enjoyed the one sided conversation. :D

Rachel! Soooo glad you're back! :D I'll put you back on my frontpage!

~neighborhood milf said...

Awwwww, sweetie! That's exactly the problem I have - but fear not: my b/f's love it when they hear that crack in my voice. It shows them my weakness...and they love to see me weak!

Showers, yes. Aren't they the best places to fantasize?


Tom said...

I love this. And Tori is absolutely right... nothing is sexier than a damsel in distress.

Cande said...

Hey Neighbour:) hmmm well now, that is interesting. I'll have to give it a go and see whether it works on my bf. :D Thanks for dropping by!

Tom: Thanks for the encouragement, I'll have to get over my fears and just go for it.