Friday, June 26, 2009

thinking

My mind is torturing me. I can't stop thinking about him and what I want him to do to me. My brain won't switch off, and it keeps going back there. My stomach jumps every time I think about how he feels when I tell him. He has a girlfriend. I know he wants me to tell him. There are two sides to every coin.

Guilt
Guilt
Guilt

Is it really fair to either of us.... or them?

Do I care?

In some deep dark place I might.

It's slowly driving me....

2 comments:

Gray said...

Guilt is a hard thing to deal with. But living in the moment definitely has consequences. Just be honest with yourself and him. See where that takes you. :) Just my .02!

Cande said...

Good advice. I told him. I'm not so worried for myself as much as for his guilt. I don't want to fuck up his relationship.