So while I was in Greece, that night I spent with Co-worker, the excuse for me to go to his bedroom was that he had water in his ear and he had heard me talking about a diving technique used for when you get a sore ear from the salt water. You can take a spoonful of very warm water mixed with half vinegar and pour it in. It dissolves the salt and dries out the ear and disinfects.
Well since we didn't have any vinegar in the bungalow where we were staying I had to make due with Gin. I figured it would work just the same.... it did work too.
This afternoon while I was at the beach, and Co-Worker was working, I got up the courage to text him saying "Help! I've got water in my ear, have you got any gin ;)"
He wrote back saying "Ehhhhhhhh..."
Now that's a really Italian sound and the meaning totally depends on the intonation. So I wrote back "Sorry, I'm at the beach and it just popped out, it won't happen again, delete everything". I was hoping he was doing a sarcastic "Ehhhhh" in which case my message would have been sarcastic as well...
Instead he thought I was being serious, and he wrote back saying, "no you misunderstood, that was meant in as a sigh of good."
So I wrote back, "and mine was sarcastic, but you know I kinda miss you, it's strange".
And that was the end of it. I didn't hear back from him... hah. Anyhow I'm glad I have it off my chest. That's all I wanted to hear from him to ease my anxiety... the "sigh of good" was exactly what I needed to hear. And I needed to tell him that I was missing him... that's it. I'm happy now.
Rob has been super busy, I got an email from him today saying as much and that also put me at ease. I hate not hearing from him, it puts me on edge every single time.
I'm back to loving men again as I always do.
On that note, I'll say that the construction worker lended me a lovely invisible hand one afternoon last week, it was a wonderful fantasy.
While I was in Greece they almost finished the road work they were doing here and I was afraid I'd never see him again. But the monday after I got back, as I was leaving for work, I searched the street to see if I could see him and alas he was no-where to be seen. But then I went past their truck and there he was. He wasn't wearing his usual green monkey suit, he was wearing a different one and I didn't recognize him right away. But he smiled at me kindly and said "morning" and I smiled back and said "Hi!" all excited, and then sped off on my bike. It was the first time I'd seen him smile, almost happy to see me I'd say. The other mornings it was more formal, no smiles, just courtesy saying hello.
I haven't seen him since unfortunately, that must have been the last morning. But when I see construction I look for him.