My Rant (skip this if you don't want to hear me whine)
Today is one of those days. I know what has brought it on too. I've had a series of frustrating events on the internet and I just want to bury myself and hide for a while, ignore everything.
They weren't serious events. They just add up and make me hate technology. One example is my conversation with Rob today that was interspersed with his phone constantly dropping off line, I think we attempted something like 8 calls in 20 minutes. In itself that isn't a problem, I laughed about it even, but I didn't actually have a conversation with him due to that.
Another example is me trying to email him and the email not going through.
The one that really got me frustrated is actually really hard to explain without exposing too much detail about myself. But suffice it to say that a technological decision on my part put me into a complicated position with a really good friend. At first I reacted with indifference and even a little anger at his reaction to my decision, and later I figured I should suck up my pride and apologize because it wasn't entirely my place to make that technological decision. I cried as I wrote the email to apologize, and when I received his even more apologetic response I cried more.
Then there's the fact that 90% of the emails that come to my account are actually for my bf's work and I have to remember to tell him, talk to him, and send emails back to the people that write me. It's becoming another job that I really don't want. We originally decided to use my email because I speak English and he doesn't. But now I'm thinking it was a bad idea.
I just want to turn everything off and not see internet for a while. I don't want to be tempted to check my email every 10 minutes to see if someone has written. I don't want to text people, I don't want to see Facebook, I don't want to use KiK, I don't want to use Instagram, I don't want to check my hotmail, I don't want to check gmail, I don't want to internet stalk people, I don't want to see the news, I don't want to see stupid half naked dancers on Italian TV, I don't want to hear about the crazy country I live in, I don't want to hear about economical crisis, I don't want to look things up on google when I don't know them, I don't want to see advertisements on tv, I don't want........ any of it.
I have been working a lot with the co worker these days and I've been falling into his little flirting tricks again. I was good at tuning it out until Monday. I wore a dress to work, and yes that always gets him. My hair was wavy that morning but it was damp out and I figured I should put it up for the afternoon, but at one point it was getting painful to keep up (updos for long periods can hurt boys), so I let it down, and since it had been up was it was back to being wavy. As soon as I let it down, he walked passed me and said a low "put it back up". I didn't quite catch it and couldn't understand so I repeated it to him without really realizing what he had said until it was out of my mouth and in the room full of people. Everyone looked at me briefly except him, and he just ignored it all. I'm assuming that letting it down somehow bothered him... he couldn't handle it.
Today I arrived during lunch break and sat to eat something on my own, Co-worker walked in, we were alone briefly and he walked over, asked what I was eating and caressed my hair, moving it away from my face behind my ear. That made my stomach do a flip. We were then interrupted by our boss who called from another room. He sat opposite me though and we talked about work.
On a spectacularly opposite note, I get people looking for "squid masturbation" on my site. I find that absolutely hilarious.