Saturday, May 26, 2012

Where am I headed?

There are days when I wonder whether I'd be happy in any relationship, I wonder what type of relationship would make me happy.
I wonder what it would be like to be in a relationship with Rob or Co-Worker. My conclusion is generally pretty negative though.

I'm kinda harsh. I don't think I'm a simple person to live with. I'm moody, I can be really jealous, I'm lazy, I'm independent (and not in a good way), I'm selfish... the list goes on.

Maybe I'll end up alone with random lovers on the side like my mother. I wonder if that ending is better than living in a relationship that I'm just tagging along in. I'm not really participating in this relationship much am I?

Maybe an artist has to suffer to be able to create. Maybe that's where I'm destined to head.



2 comments:

ebony panther said...

I know how you feel. I don't think I'm the relationship type. Mine is a choice, though. I'm just too married to my work & life to share it in depth with just one person.

Johanna said...

I started writing a comment... but I quickly realized it wasn't about you, but about me, so I wrote a post instead. Read it if you like: http://disentanglingjohanna.wordpress.com/2012/05/29/life-choices-and-g-spot-orgasms/