Friday, January 25, 2013

falling through...

I am so tired of this country. I want to bury myself under the sand in some warm desert somewhere.

I cried yesterday. I got an email saying that the owner of the apartment had a family member interested, an aunt, they said. They'll know more by next week and let me know.

I have been advised, by a close friend to go knock on the guy's door to see if it's true. Maybe it's the agency that's really just taking me for a ride and fucking me over.

The worst part is that I was already thinking about how I'd decorate. The fact that I told bf doesn't help either. Now it feels like I'm forced to pull back from my decision.

I emailed them on Tuesday saying that I'd like the floor plans and once I had that I'd stop by to pay the down payment. She answered that there was no rush that they weren't going to show the apartment to anyone until I'd said a definitive yes or no. In my next email I said that I had decided for a yes.

Thursday I get the email saying that there's a chance he'll give it to his aunt.

In the meantime I've had two significant conversations with the bf but I'm just so tired that I can't be bothered to write about them. They were important, they were interesting, we even talked about cheating and stuff, but I can't write it out now. Maybe later this evening, maybe tomorrow.

I just feel so frustrated.

Maybe I should just put everything into storage and go travelling and never come back.

3 comments:

Michael said...

Cande, yes this news is dispiriting. But cheer up! You ARE on a new road, and there may continue to be hills to climb. Just persevere ... you can do it.

Mike

Advizor54 said...

Go live with the Aunt, split the cost, save some money, stay under the legal limits, and move forward with the plan. Maybe, with any luck, the Aunt is a hottie.

But, all joking aside, it's very discouraging news, but something else will appear. Don't give up, and don't settle back in.

rachel-xx said...

I'm w Advizor on this. Something good is going to appear. In the meantime, you are in my thoughts and prayers.