I honestly don't know what to think anymore.
I went to see that studio space/shop this afternoon. The place was nice. It's big enough to split into two parts, one for art stuff and one for lessons.
The stupid real-estate agent showed up and basically told me that the price she quoted me was before tax... that means an extra 20% to add to the price she originally quoted me. WTF? you tell me that once I'm there, four days after you've told me it costs 350?
I guess it's just not in the cards. Bf tells me to have faith in him and that he'll find something. But you know what, I'm still not really sure it makes much sense.
We're leaving for 45 days in July for North America, and won't be back until september. Then there's the fact that I'll be super busy this winter with all the extra courses I've been handed at the community college I work for. So I don't even know what I'd do with a studio that I'd just have to pay rent on, with so little time to actually use it.
It's a bit disconcerting. It feels like such a great thing to think about my own space.... but at the same time I don't know that it makes any sense.
I feel frustrated today. Even if things are going well with bf something tells me I need to move on.
I haven't really heard from Rob much today, I've sent him a few emails, but nothing terribly interesting. I still feel very strongly, I miss him intensely at times. Work has me busy so I have less time to think about him. But I get crazy turned on just thinking about him and other times I just want to hear from him, talk, hear his voice.
I think though that whether I like it or not, things are going back to normal, so to speak. The amount of contact we had is getting back to normal. As much as I don't want them to, the constant flow of emails and skype calls, that were constant while I had a week off, have subsided. I don't have much control over that so.....