So today I said something really horrible to my bf. I shouldn't have. But he didn't seem to notice. I have been dropping some pretty heavy going hints recently.
Today he told me that I've been spending too much time on the computer. That I don't have any stimuli to do anything else. This is and isn't true. I have had stimuli, enough to go to an art show on my own and go out for drinks with friends.
I said that I couldn't possibly be stimulated with someone who was so un-stimulating.
It was the honest truth. But it was brutal of me to say it so bluntly.
I am an artistic person. I love everything from art, painting, music, film, nature, ANYTHING. He is almost the opposite. He hates museums. He refuses to come to an art show with me. He hates the music I listen to. He never stays awake during a movie and he rarely takes me to the movies. He likes the beach (perhaps the only thing we have in common) but he likes to harpoon things while I prefer to look at them through my snorkeling mask.
Sometimes I feel like I need an accomplice in crime.... he doesn't see that as his role at all.
I wouldn't mind having a mind to bounce artistic ideas off of, or talk to about music or movies that I love.
Don't get me wrong. I feel like I'm being terribly negative these days. We do have our moments. We play wrestle, we giggle together about life, and he can make me laugh. He often has good insight into my problems, he is ingenuous in how to resolve them. He is also street wise. He has a lot of great qualities.
I just think that there's someone else out there who is more compatible with me. Am I wrong for thinking that and looking for it?