Thursday, April 29, 2010


It has been a strange week for me. A lot of things going on.

I had a lot of work to do. Finishing up at a school and a full course and timetable on the other side as well.

This morning was the first time in weeks that I've had some time to myself with nothing planned. I went to work for just an hour which meant that I was home by 10:30. Bf had picked up a waffle iron that I found at a German supermarket here.

*I can't get certain foods here and it makes me sad at times. Bagels, waffles, bacon (now available, thank god), cheddar cheese, sour cream, and the list can go on for hours.

Anyhow back to the topic at hand. I finally found a waffle iron, which is a rarity here, I was so stoked, I got a friend to send me a recipe so I was excited to try it out. 5 years without waffles can make you a bit loopy. Anyhow I got home and immediately got to work. Bf was at the hospital with his brother (who is still doing chemo somewhat successfully). It was super sunny, I chose not to turn on the tv, or the computer or even the radio. Just me and my waffles.

I was so excited I wanted to share my excitement with someone, but there was no-one around to share with. The first ones came out PERFECT and I scarfed them down with a few drops from a 7 Euro bottle of Maple Syrup. They were delicious. I made so many that I had a bunch left over, and knowing they're still good to heat up in a toaster, I left them for bf.

The rest of the day went from amazing to depressing.

He has such a knack for pulling me down. I can't figure out if it's me or it's him. I really honestly can't figure it out.

It wasn't anything in specific he said or did. He just managed to ruin my good mood immediately, as soon as he got in the door. Maybe it's his lack of enthusiasm. I mean, I was so excited about the fucking waffles, that I was hoping he'd be just as enthusiastic. When he wasn't at all enthusiastic about them, not even a compliment on how they came out. I was disappointed I guess.

Maybe I'm too sensitive.

Having been so busy has made it impossible for me to do anything apart from work. That means a lack of HNT this week, a lack of posts, a fall in my page views on Sitemeter, a lot of catching up to do on other blogs, lots of consequences. I'll have to make up for it.

Next week I'll have some more time off work, but that doesn't mean anything, bf is always home.

I need a vacation. I've been looking into doing a course in London. That will give me a good excuse to get away by myself.


Anonymous said...

You can only have disappointment if you first have expectation. The disappointment was likely due to the expectation he would be excited.

I hope your next week is better!

Cande said...

Yep, you got that right... gotta keep my expectations lower. But you know what, it's a bit like taking a person to a place you loved when you were younger. Showing them around hoping they'll like it as much as you and then finding out they hate it. It's sad, brings you down fast.

Anonymous said...

That is true. The crux of the question is are your expectations out of line?
Do you enjoy the same things? Etc
Should your man meet your expectations for the most part?

Maybe it is something to consider.

Leonhart said...

Well, in his defence, he had just come back from the hospital, right? A chemo session with his brother? If that's not gonna get you depressed then what will?

Look on the bright side. It was sunny! You got waffles!

Diner Nighthawk said...

I was in a hotel once that had a waffle iron and a batter dispenser as part of their free continental breakfast. I thought it was amazing, but if it makes you feel any better, no one was excited about it either :)

Cande said...

Sage: You're right, I'll be meditating on those for the next 11 years....

LH: You're absolutely right, I should have considered that too. It was rather selfish of me to not think of that, but Waffles make everything better....

DN: Fact is that here no one knows what a waffle is. You can't get them here. Consider if you went to that hotel and hadn't seen a waffle in 5 years. How would your reaction be then?

Anonymous said...

Well you can decide whenever you want then take another path if you deem that necessary.