Tuesday, April 6, 2010

something is up...

BF asked me if I had found a boyfriend in London. If that was why I wanted to go on my own, without him. He was half joking. I answered a very dry, "no" and that was that.

I imagine he has a gut feeling that something is up.

I don't know if it's just a phase, the melancholy phase, that brings out these worries in me. I tend to notice a lot of negative things though. He asked me in the car who got the short end of the stick in our relationship. He said it with a smile on his face, he had had some wine. But my answer was that we are pretty equal. He didn't agree, he said that he got the short end. That I had trapped him into this relationship. I asked him three times, while smiling, if that meant that he wanted to be let go. And he changed the subject.

That can't be right.... Something is amiss.


Leonhart said...


Those comments from him were brutal. I'm amazed you just. . . took them. You'd have been well within your rights to push the matter, to demand he qualify exactly what he meant, what he wanted.

And when are you going to London? This is ANOTHER big deal you just slip in!

This is a small post with two giant hand grenades casually rolled under the door!

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear this.

My ex made small remarks like this -- not small at all really, but he'd pretend they were by putting a smile on his face and sort of slipping them into the conversation and changing the subject when pressed. Things (obviously) did not work out for us.

People, as a rule, mean what they say.

BIG HUGS! I hope it all works out for you. You deserve to be ecstatically happy. We get this life once, you know. :)