I've been thinking about Rob a lot. I miss him terribly.
It has been a long while. He's probably regretting asking me to come over there. He's avoiding me.
I even sent him an email to see if he'd answer, he rarely looks at his emails. But he hasn't answered... who knows.
Today bf asked me if I wanted to know the prices of flights to London for June. HE asked me. I was awestruck. I'm not sure if he was including himself in the trip or not. But he was serious.
I'm not sure at this point if Rob still wants me to come. I'll just have to play it by ear.
I haven't had any sex in AGES. I'm not even sure how long it has been. I should try to figure it out. It must be a month. When was the last time I posted about it? Oh right on the 29th of March, so no, not a month, but long enough.
I've been busy and bf is ALWAYS home now. So I have NO time to myself. I need my space. I need my "alone" time. I don't know how long I'll be able to deal with this.
I had a discussion about banks and money and mortgages with bf. It was of course all brought on by my blogging and all of the questions my blog friends have been asking me.
He is quite obviously opposed to looking into it. Although he might soften up. He says that with the interest rates, we'd be paying would double the price of the house. Especially if we can't pay a down payment. He's right of course, I did say that he was street smart.
After that last post. I have been seriously contemplating talking to bf about my thoughts. Telling him that perhaps it's time for a break. It's not easy we're sharing a rented apartment. We've got a parrot, we have A LOT of friends we'd have to deal with. But perhaps it is for the best. I'll be thinking about it. I'm sure he'd convince me that it's not the best thing. That we need to stay together. I'm a bit afraid of telling him how I feel, I don't want to hurt him.
It's also strange this language thing. Things seem less real when you're saying things in a language that isn't the one you grew up with...