It's a little overwhelming really. I finally caught up with Rob today, it was a 1 hour conversation. I'm not going to go into all the detail now. I just need the time to think through it all and figure things out. But it was important to me. It was a conversation that has changed my view on things, in a positive way. It may have its down side, but it's something I can deal with.
Things have possibly been progressing with co-worker too. I can't understand him sometimes. And I'll probably get an idea this weekend of what's actually going on between us. He had been hinting this week about a concert on Sunday, telling me that his friend had tickets and that I should check out this singer, she is cool etc.... I kinda ignored it for a bit and then with some help I realized that it would be a good opportunity to figure things out. Since it's on Sunday bf will be at work, It's not far from here so I can get there on my own. So I invited Co-worker to lunch Thursday and again today. Today we had the possibility to talk a little on our own before the "others" arrived. I asked him about the tickets, prices and where to get them and stuff and I asked him again if he was going. I then mentioned it to Bf and it went down rather well. I just need to get my ticket.
Lunch itself was nice. I went and sat next to him today. We started out at a normal distance and as we spoke to a friend of ours sitting in front of us we kept moving closer and closer until our arms were touching. When our arms weren't touching our knees were... he used my as a sort of physical example of stuff while explaining something to our friend on the other side of the table, and it was another excuse to touch (for me at least). I have a hard time figuring out what's in my mind, what I do and what he does... I wonder if he just doesn't mind the proximity and he doesn't move away or if he notices it as much as I do... (unlikely).
Anyhow we'll see how things go Sunday.
I told Rob about the concert and he kept asking me if I wanted something to happen or if I wanted to get caught. He is convinced that I want to put myself in danger, that I'm looking for a way out of my relationship. I really just want some kind of concrete proof of what he really is up to. Maybe it's all in my mind... maybe his girlfriend will be at the concert.