Tuesday, August 25, 2009


Why am jealous of her?

I work with foreigners. People who aren't Italian, speaking from Italy. Since my boyfriend quit his factory job two years ago due to the dangers of working there he has been doing odd jobs around town.

One job is taxiing the foreigners that I work with. He taxis them from nearby airports to the town where I live and work. They are often women, alone. This generally doesn't make me anxious but this week it did.

He came home raving about her. He told me that they spoke a lot during the drive (2 hours long), he said that she knows everything about us, mentioning offhandedly that she's pretty and she travels a lot and that she's been to India, a place we're planning on visiting this winter.

This put me on edge. I met her yesterday, she's not as pretty as I expected, although she has a nice body. curvaceous, straight blond hair, big boobs. I'm not terribly attracted to her face. In fact I'd define her almost ugly. Now don't get me wrong, she's not an ugly woman, I just don't like her aesthetically. Now I'm not completely bi, but I do like some women, I feel attracted to some of them, but this is not one of them, she wears entirely too much make-up for my tastes, and I find her invadingly too nice. I'm also honest enough that if it had been a beautiful woman I would have said so. There's another young woman this week who is gorgeous. I'd even fuck her. She's young though.

This evening my bf told me that he wants to invite her to dinner. I'm not exactly wild about the idea. In reality I'd rather avoid the whole thing. I don't mind going out, especially with other people involved, but to invite her to eat at our place... um no.

I'm supposed to invite her tomorrow. ugh. I didn't have the courage or the heart to tell him that I don't want to invite her. I'll probably find the courage though, I feel pretty strongly about it. Or maybe I'll suggest we invite other people too.

He also has to drive her back to the airport on Saturday. That bugs me too.


Ronjazz said...

Why don't you simply take this as an indication that he, too, want to expand your sex life together? Remember the old American phrase "What's good for the goose..." etc. In your previous post, you offer a hot moment about two men doing you... He reads your blog. Could it be a signal? Is it something you two can talk about? And are you free enough to do people separately? Lots of questions here from a new friend...

And thank you. Very much appreciated, your presence in my blog.

sin said...

Jealousy is hell. It's not about logic, it's about your instincts I think.


BlueEyes69 said...

OMG, too funny that you find too much make-up a turnoff. I'm not alone!!! I, too, am attracted to some women, but that is one of my pet peeves as well. Thanks for helping me feel normal!


Cande said...

Ronjazz: Thanks for the advice. Only problem is that my bf doesn't read the blog. He is Italian and speaks little to no english. The thought of turning it into a sexual adventure had crossed my mind, yet I don't think this woman would be interested, and unfortunately since I am not attracted to her would make it difficult for me too.

Sin: thanks for stopping by, you are absolutely right. Being instinctive it is very difficult to control.

BlueEyes: Haha no problem. The fact that I rarely wear any makeup and when I do it is minimal, lip-gloss and eyeliner a hint of eyeshadow, I can't stand when people cake it on like clowns. I wonder what they're hiding. I have used heavier makeup for photographs, heavy black eye makeup and darker lipstick... but only to get into the role of a "slut model" ;)